wyum on DeviantArthttps://www.deviantart.com/wyum/art/I-m-so-tired-of-social-life-624539119wyum

Deviation Actions

wyum's avatar

I'm so tired of social life

By
Published:
5.8K Views

Description

does this count as vent art? I mean, I'm not really complaing about something, I know how to handle this ... somehow
Anyway, sorry for the less quality in this picture, But I didn't thought that high detailed hair and tha would suit it that well, so I let it more rough.
Also I think its the first picture ever that I really put a meaning in that I draw. Usual I draw something in this way, because it looks better than in another way (my standard answer to the art teacher " I draw it like this because it looks better but, hell, don't ask my what's the meaning behind this")

now some people might be question what the hell I want to express with that picture? the main meaning is actually visible, I guess.
People how know me a bit also will know that I'm a very quite person, I'm a introverted person in a extrem form *cough* and thats why I often here in the last few months from some friends "Why you don't talk to me?" " Don't you want to be my friend anymore?"
I often say to them that I'm just a quiete person and that I don't need that much social contact at all and that I prefer it in the end that the people come to me and start the talk. I never know how to start a conversation, I'm bad in small talks. Very bad. Just fear they to fast that I'm annoying the person to death, so then they come to me I know they really want to talk with me right now and when it's just for a few minutes, that's enough for me. I really don't mind if I haven't any talk in weeks, it takes a long time until I start to fell lonely xD
Honestly, to much social contact really stress me with the time like a hard work job and makes me sometimes really depressed too. From one second to a another one my mode can turn into a tortally different direction, into super sad or also very angry. My mind is just like: " Oh come one could you please just shut finally up and let me listen to my music please. (I use music to free my head and as help to focus on my work)  I'm tired of listening, I can't take part of your conversation so don't mind me and let me alone please." and I
completely shut up in this mode. Doesn't matter how much I want to answer to the worried question of my friends what's going on right know to me, I can't get any single word out.


Okay '-' so much to the meaning behind this shit, sorry for bothering you with my problems, but one thing went totally wrong in my childhood and sometimes its easier to talk about your shit if people totally don't know you and which your probably never going to meet in real life

---
Character + Art (c) me wyum
Image size
6000x3375px 12.7 MB
© 2016 - 2024 wyum
Comments55
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
jadeplusapatchy's avatar
Aww it's ok beb I'm the same way tbh, its from lot of mental, emotional, and physical abuse in your past that cuases this to happen, but your vry strong and know how to fix it so you'll get through this,, if you ever need a friend to talk to and or vent to about stuff like this feel free to dm and or message me and I'd love to listen, understand and be there for you ^^ I'm sorry if this makes you unconfurtbale or anything I didnt mean to or anything and am just trying to help, but if you ever need someon to talk to and understand feel free to come to me and I'll try my best to understand and help and be a good frind and stuff ;;w;; and you dont have to if you dont want to becuase I dont want to make you unconfurtble or anything, but if you ever need someone to talk to and understand then feel free to come to me and id love to help and try my best to listen, understand and help you fel beeetter bc your one of my favoright artists and I go through the same thing but ina different manner bc of my situation, but I go through the same thing and would love to understand try my best to help understand and help you feel better, becuae your hella bad ass and one of my favoright artists and bad ass and I relate to you alot and would love to help and help you feel better and stuff otl ;;w;; <33